Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day. ~Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

When I went to Hilversum last tuesday, I was amazed that the majority of the surprisingly kind smiles and hellos I received, were from utter strangers.

A smile, a kind look, just asking how people are doing. It can have so much impact.

Apparently I'm currently feeling very insecure about my own place among people.

Sure, there's plenty of room for that knowing upon my posture.

I didn't know it was possible to cry your heart out WHILE having a laughing kick AT THE SAME TIME.

FrostDryer presentation went well. The game is pretty well.

But then you hear the judges award bonus points prior to presentations to teams who did exactly the same stuff and effort as us. You deliver 100+ page counting document design knowing it won't be read and......

Depressive.

Tons of effort, but never on the top. All the times I'm a happy girl, but that is just my reality.








I'm proud, though.

http://www.rockngothshop.com/v5/cat-eu-eur/EER_Steam_Powered_Entropy_Calibrator_Wristwatch_AW15.html

I would so pay the money for that!

...in my work at the moment. Am feeling better though, even if I'm not sure whether I'm gonna make it through next week in one piece.

Begun downloading of the Digimon Adventure season 1 plus the movies. Have been a great fan of the series when I was little, but Foxkids used to mess it up, like almost everything else they broadcasted. So yeah, try and remember the entire story of it like that.

And the current shows are mostly just a load of crap no-one should be in their right mind to feed to kids.

Alright.... 'cept for Avatar, and TS, and some.

SO.
Guess who's doing airborne stuff coming summer?

Mistwind's character device was very dismayed with me that I didn't step up and try to research his world, in particular his dynamics, a bit more.
So coming spring/summer I will be seeking out an afternoon of delta-flying!

Controlled/rode tanks, examined chinooks/apaches up close, owned several dogs, am a tracer, dove with a diving suit, but the closest thing I got to being airborne was a commercial airline. Mistwind: "That's nothing like mine!"

And there we have it. -Points- there's a glider club in my backyard right there, ain't it? And 30 minutes with the car and we got delta-flyers.

Spend the last 30 minutes in a non-stop jogging pace on the spot, full stealth (every impact shock diverted by the muscles instead of by the bones).

Haven't been doing anything for my fitness lately; it's great to see the muscle memory still maintaining the standards considering it's been more than a year back when I trained twice a week. Am feeling energized instead of tired, even with having gone out last night.

Great idea! I'm going to start a daily small hour 'round the block or 'round the park during my weeks. It has all kinds of benefits:
- I'm maintaining a good posture
- It's refreshing
- It settles the thoughts
- It's good for your condition
- The endorphins that get released make you feel good

Got awesome help today from a teammember's friend on our codes. We have positive collision checks and I can move onwards with the game.

Nice.

Especially since we heard that we only got one week left to go, basically. That's awesome, ain't it? Today's diagnosis of the future:

School stuff:
1. Project: Coding, placements, stuff. Lots.
2. Animation: We shall just animate the Indy Heat model. Wanted to do Mirage in all truth..... but then I deleted his geometry and saved (Woopsie!)
3. Design Essay. NO clue what it should contain.
4. Art: Before and After scene.
5. Portfolio adding.

Non-School stuff:
1. Create a Thundercracker model [his head]
2. Do some design stuff
3. Color the Transformers Comic pages

-. Got a Noir post in yesterday. Bet he's about to transform in-game, so that would be cool. One of the best character designs made; been spinning for a few years now without ever leaving his beast form. Exciting in one way, but in another it feels like saying goodbye to his USP or something.

-  Finished the main strand of the new DreadBraid I'm making. Coincidentally I keep being reminded of Indy Heat as the colors are teal and magenta.

-  Had a nice Audio Design class.

-  Am modelling in 3DsMax and still amazed at how fast I picked it back up after years of non-use.

-  Been playing Dragonage along the far sides, and it is a great game. Save for the camera fails at times.

-  Just realised I can use the Skid-Z and/or Mirage models for my animation assignment, since it wants to see a resolution involving a minimum of six hours work, and is not project bound. Sounds like some dudes are about to get very friendly with maya.

Addding to the list:

-  A lovely evening meal consisting of smoked mackerel.

-  The knowledge that there's another piece in the fridge ready for tomorrow.

-  Finished the DreadBraid! It's lovely, though I need to scour for some endpieces.

-  Being able to install C4D so I can convert Skid-z and Mirage to FBX filetypes.

-  Having interwebz at dorm and able to edit this list!

Friday was moderately fun. I liked the avatar specials for animation, and XNA proved to be rather informative. I sat next to someone hyper and bouncy. I really liked that. It made me feel whole lots better, if only for those particular hours.

For the past few days, I have been feeling miserable about my life.

The reasons are numerous.

For those of you already writing: Happy NaNoWriMo! I shall be joining you after my working day here is done.

This weekend I was at London to participate in the Wardens Quest. This means I was one of the lucky 40 people to play the new RPG Dragonage: Origins before anyone can buy it, and it has been an unforgettable experience.

Upcoming monday I can already swap my codecard and download my Digital Deluxe Edition. That is just awesome, Dragonage will be a very enjoyable game for a long time.
I'm more inspired for my work and got some pointers for my portfolio site.

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Today was Gamersdag 2009. It turned out interesting; Not many enjoyable games for me (Fifa.... bleh), though I have been sitting by the Brutal Legend screen watching that. Took out my dummy and began drawing, at which I got promptly asked for my Deviantart account and contact information several times.

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NaNoWriMo will be starting tomorrow. I will be writing the Vaishtaner Chronicles story; It's a path intertwiner with three protagonists. Let's see how it goes. 

The Premisse:
As part of a caravan band, three travellers are searching for an ancient hidden artifact.
Sestine is the cursed one; seeking salvation from a divine parasite devouring him.
Marlentis seeks to save the innocent.
Hishtori is the one no-one has no clue for why he left his homeland.

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The Frozen game is making awesome progression. It just is. It was great coming back at school last friday and see all the work done.

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Two of my friends have been kicked out of their educations. One is a very very very good friend of mine. I cried. I know I will cry again next week. They did not deserve.

Everything will be different. I don't want it to.

It was awesome! It wasn't huge like Gameplay used to be, but it was absolutely made of win.

My personal list of games that got me all excited:
- Fairytale Fights. Like castle crashers, but bloodier and with fairytale characters, love!
- Brutal Legend. Dynamic, hilarious and epic. Really enough said.
- Dragon Age: Origins. Jaw to the ground, stare. Slick, original animations, and it works the game type I wanted to see as of late: a game that changes depending on the choices you make.
- Darksiders. Over the top protagonist? Yeah. But it plays well, is diverse and very exciting.

Also, by a sheer bound of luck (which almighty force must I send my thanks to?) I have won a contest and got selected to play in a team at a 24-hour lasting game marathon at Dragon Age's launch date next week.  
In London!

Wow!

Whole of last year is now online and present, what with the extra space we could request.

Go have a look!
Older items are at the bottom, newest get stacked on top.
The modules page.

The projects page.

This site design is definitely a keeper. It's a breeze to update.